Time seems to have gone by a flash.

I can hardly remember what I did as time passed by.

But I do know that it has been grueling,

and bothersome.

This week has left me nothing but exhaustion.

Slowly losing my enthusiasm,

Left my mind wandering in a blank state.

Oblivious I remained, to the eyes staring at me.

Probably wondering what ever the hell happened to me.

But I continued,

Swimming in the blank state of mine.

Completely ignoring the eyes that stared into my soul,

And never felt disquieted.

To summarize: Lutang ko for the whole week.

Time always passes like a blur.

And so many people walk this earth,

With purpose in their minds,

But deep within their hearts they knew,

That what they’re living is a lie.

The alarm goes off at 6 a.m.

Like every other day,

Then they walk into the jobs they hate,

All because they need the pay,

All time does is take from them,

But it never seems to give,

Always waiting for the day to come,

When they finally start to live,

And I’m all too scared that one day soon,

I’ll become just like the rest,

Only walking with the crowd,

For the sole purpose of breathing,

That one day, I’ll look back on life,

At the opportunities that I missed,

And realize, I never truly lived,

All I did was just exist.

-To SMC

In relation to that picture, I too, caught a cough and a cold on the same week where NCOV was finally confirmed to have spread in the Philippines. Although they said they had confined the infected in a facility where the virus could not spread further, it didn’t helped me when I knew that the virus could be transmitted through the air making me undeniably more anxious than before. For a week, I was worried that this ailment might possibly be the symptoms that everyone is talking about and if so, IF I were really infected, what should I do? Run? Where? Should I get away from my family as soon as possible? And if I were to die, who’s gonna take care of my parents? LOL. I always thought of myself as an overthinker but those thoughts really devoured me every night, you know?

I feared what’s to come so I drowned those thoughts and dared myself not to think like that again. Instead, I focused on my recovery and maintained optimistic. I even joked about spreading the so-called ‘virus’ to my friends but some of them just hugged me and I’m like wow, do you really wanna die?

My closest friend even responded, “Ubhi lang ko arun kitang duha mangamatay” Bruh…WHAT THE?? and giubhan sad nako siya. YOLO. I’d like her company in hell anyways.

Thankfully by the time our immersion activities began, I am almost fully recovered so the day went like a breeze for me but at the same time, It was also very exhausting. I combated sleepiness throughout the entire day and I almost choked when my friend performed chest compression too hard on me but I did the same for her so we’re on the same boat, for now. Before we try to kill each other again.

F R I D A Y

I SWEAR I SAW A PICTURE WITH THE WHOLE CLASS IN IT BUT I COULDN’T FIND IT SO.

To summarize what happened yesterday, it was a day where we held our aquatics, it was like a training session for swimming and of course, that day went badly for me given that I don’t even know how to swim. I was always the last one to finish and I kept on drowning and drowning while others stay afloat in the water and I’m like WHAT THE HELL?? HOW CAN THEY DO THAT and I was so frustrated. I kept on accidentally drinking the water and cough again and sometimes the water would enter inside my nose so I would cough again and blow my nose(Not like when you’re having a cold) and then I went through the same cycle all over again.

And I said to myself, “Never again, Michelle”

Or else, next time I will surely die but I did enjoy jumping on a 16 feet pool WITH a life vest,of course, it’s the only time that I can be proud of myself and yell “HELL YEAH, I DID IT, YOU THOUGHT I WOULD BE SCARED OF YOU FOREVER, HEIGHTS!!!” and then I went wild afterwards.

It was really a memorable experience even though it was embarrassing. The most important thing is that I enjoyed the activity while it lasted and I’m sad that the school year is almost at it’s end. BYE OLIC. HELLO IIT YIEEEEE PILINGON but truly, I do wish that all of us can pass that exam.

After the aquatics, we were given one hour to enjoy pleasures of the pool. I wanted to stay but my friends would not so I just went and changed my clothes because ‘I go where they go’. Afterwards, we went on chingkeetea kase may ramen at may Denmark. Kapag may Denmark, tiyak na ramen ang kakainin at kapag ramen ang kakainin, may Denmark Manatom.

Also Bebs, A personal meme for you.

Honestly, this was one of the most tiring weeks I ever had except for Monday tho cause we really didn’t do anything at that day. Heck, I can’t even remember if I did anything that day or even go to school? I don’t know, I am probably just playing dead in our house or catch mice somewhere near the holes in our house but yeah, I can say, Monday was pretty fine not until Tuesday.

Tuesday was…

The day of our immersion.

It was a day where we had to give out vaccines for young children at the age of 3? or above or something like that. I can’t remember all the details clearly but all I can remember is that it was sOoOOoOooOOoOoo UTTERLY and ABSOLUTELY tiring.(Michael’s don’t kill me, let me rant and graduate.) I may sound like I’m exaggerating but no, for someone like me who spends most of her time sitting around, staring at random people, peeping and etc. It was exhausting.

The heat was getting through me and I am slowly going back to my so called ‘hysterical’ self where I would start yelling at my group mates, draw…you know, ‘inappropriate’ things on the walls of the houses we visited, I would randomly talk to a cat for some reason like it’s a human person and of course, I whined all the time. I was extremely lutang at those times. For a short period of time, I felt like not caring for anything anymore and my mind would just keep saying to me, “NO MORE PLEASE, ULI NAKO” but God said no to my prayers and we were the last ones to ever finish.

What’s worse in that day is the lunch.

Yes.

The lunch.

I’m freaking mad over a lunch.

I mean…UNSA MAN TONG AKONG NADUNGGAN SA AKONG MGA CLASSMATE NA NAKAUNAG IMMERSION?? ANA SILA DUHA KA CHICKEN ANG IHATAG NYA PAG ABOT SA AKOA ISA RA?? BUKOGON PAJUD HALOS WA NAY UNOD PARESAN PAG ISA KA SLICE NA CARROT OG PATATAS NA AMBOT NALANG. AKONG CHICKEN OI.

I demand justice and equality for my chicken. Sorry for the rant.

NYA WA PAJUY UTENSILS!!!

Again, sorry for the rant.

Moving on! Kay gusto nako matulog, here’s the summary:

Day 2 of our immersion. Same place, same time, same mood, same lunch pero nagkaitom nako.

And here comes, Thursday.

It was the day that I finally saw all my classmates again. I admit I didn’t think that I would be glad to see them again and even miss them but I was ecstatic. Also, it was the day of our reporting in chemistry and the day where we have to work out our physics projects so that emotion of happiness just fell short afterwards.

My day at that time went like this:

And

I chose this because Lesly looks so cute, Imma die now. Og ako diay(Self-Support)

Lastly! FRIDAY!

The day of our graduation pictorial.

For personal reasons, I simply do not want to elaborate anything that happened on that day because if I do, well, nah.

But to think that the school year is about to end makes me a bit melancholic. To be honest, this wasn’t the best class I had but I grew fond of the people there as time passes by. True, not everyone got along, I mean not everyone can but the interactions that we had is something that I hold dear and I know when the graduation day comes, it would be difficult for me to see everyone leaving and go their separate ways but I hope the friendships that we built will remain with us, always.

Grade 12- Our Lady of Immaculate Conception Signing off.

IIT OR MICHAEL’S HERE I COME! HAHAHAHHA

Right now, it’s 9:59 in the evening.

And I’m starting to feel the pressure-

The pressure of contemplating a good introduction

But

…

…

…

Nah, I say hell to that, I ain’t wasting my time for that again. Let me just go straight to the point.

At Sunday, of course, I didn’t go to the church because if I did? I know I’ll probably faint in the middle of a crowded center of the church and embarrass myself again. I am most likely not welcome in there given my diabolical personality. In short to what I’m saying, I was too lazy to take a bath or even make a move so Lord, I know you can see this, forgive me.

At monday– scratch that, At monday to wednesday, where was I? Oh right, I was at school doing absolutely nothing at all, not that I’m complaining but I could have used that time wisely like watching netflix, listening to music, playing for like a 100+ hours or so then I can be so satisfied that I am ready to die by then but no, I was at school staring at the bored expressions of my classmates like yeah, there’s no homework, there’s no quizzes, there’s no oral recitations but my mind was saying to me over and over again, “Why did I even go to school, Why did my friends convince me to go, Where are my classmates??” The room was pretty much empty in those three days, you can almost imagine a tumbleweed casually being blown away by the wind.

At thursday, well, it was the day of our examinations and here is a meme that sums up what I’ve been up to that day.

And I tried this too before the day of my exam.

And so, I literally studied at the last minute of my examination and at the end, I leave the school with no regrets, I leave like a SURVIVOR! Thanks to the geniuses that were close to me, I answered all the subjects like a pro except for the chemistry tho, actually what the hell even is chemistry?

At friday, phew this is the last one, it’s still the day of our examination. The first subject was fairly alright if I say so and that went through smoothly. The bomb was the second subject, physics, yeah my long time favorite and the one subject that I keep zoning out in class but I’d say, I did pretty well- in the essay part. The solving part? Well it looked like this when it was time’s up.

Bagsak na naman. YEY.

Goodbye grade 12(2019-2020)

Hello again, grade 12(2020-2021)

7 Days

168 Hours

604800 Seconds

A time I believed I spent wisely.

Well not really, in reality I spend a lot of my time procrastinating, sleeping, eating, and annoying my friends instead of doing what I should be doing but I assure you, I do get the job done -> at the last minute. I mean, what can I do? The Mañana Habit has long been running in the bloods of the TRUE Filipinos but nah I’m sure we all can be lazy at some point.

A lot of things has happened during the last few days of my life. It was uneventful at the very least, nothing out of the ordinary happened. It was the same usual routine of my existence. Ma’am pwede mag bisaya? English is so nosebleed. Me dying.

I don’t know which day was this but I remember eating this and thinking how it sucked almost all the life force out my wallet. For a single meal. Well, atleast it was worthwhile because I was with my friends and I live for the conversations that we have but still I regret ordering the milktea.

There are better pictures but I liked this the most. This was during the time of our physics period and here we are at the canteen when everyone thought we were at the clinic. In truth there we are, casually chatting like we have no classes at that hour but deep down in our butts, no one just have the guts to go back to our room in fear of being scolded by our teacher. Of course, the story in that picture is much more complicated and longer than that but for embarrassing reasons, there’s no way I’m putting it in my blog but just saying, this was definitely one of my most memorable moments thanks to the three idiots that were with me at that time.

I truly was not able to understand anything at that time and it also didn’t help when my seatmate was as confused as me so yeah, we just surrendered and amused ourselves. And the upcoming exam will probably bite us in our butts later on.

Lastly, we went to PAKO and ordered their special as planned. I almost cried for my 200 pesos but the meal was delicious and I was full by the end. Although I do not recommend it to those people whose appetite could not eat more than 2 platings but I was more or less satisfied. After that, we went to dark roast, there we are completely broke but it was fun regardless.

And I thank you. I’m sleepy na. The End.

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